New Years... yup, it's that time again.
Generally at this time I'm a pretty excited person. There's all sorts of parties going on and hey, a whole new year is about to begin! But I'm gonna be honest, I'm kinda dreading tomorrow. 2013. Time's just flying by.
I've been looking forward to this year since like... 8th grade. Graduation - college - adulthood - It all looked so exciting five years ago. And now, the closer it gets, the more I wish I could just hide out in high-school.
This last semester has been amazing. Not necessarily academically, though it hasn't been too shabby in that respect. Relationship-wise though, things have never been better. I guess everyone hits a point where they finally know which friendships are genuine and which ones are not so much. Senior year has definitely done that for me. And I am absolutely terrified of leaving these people this fall for college. Maybe I shouldn't be, but I am.
I guess it's just time to cowboy up.
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On another unrelated note, I got a calender for Christmas and on the packaging was this quote that I really liked. You can tell I liked it because I cut it out and stuck it to my door. Yup.
"Just think, you're here not by chance, but by God's choosing. His hand formed you and made you the person you are. He compares you to no one else - you are one of a kind. You lack nothing that his grace can't give you. He has allowed you to be here at this time in history to fulfill his special purpose for this generation."
Spot on.
Monday, December 31, 2012
Monday, December 3, 2012
"Being Happy Takes Alot of Practice... Doesn't It?"
I realize that I'm not a very good blogger/journal keeper. But I've got two words for you...
Senior year.
Now, I'm not making excuses for myself. Well, kinda. I know that we've been told time and time again to keep a record of our lives and experiences... so, I'm going to keep trying to get better at this.
So, over the past few months, things have kinda kicked up a notch. The month of November was kind of like one giant application. Scholarship applications, college applications, job applications... If I never see another application in my life, I'll be cool with it. It was probably one of the most stressful times I have ever had to experience, thus far.
However, I lived, and have two finished applications in at BYU Provo and BYU Idaho. Step one... check.
But November had it's highlights, to be sure. I got to spend a whole six days with two of my favorite people in the world, one of which who traveled by plane just to see us. That week went by kind of fast, filled with Black Friday shopping, too much junk food, way late nights, and lots of conversations about our favorite men. Needless to say, I needed a week of complete and total teenage normalcy. Who knows how many more I'll get before it's time to grow up?
So, also during the month of November, I re-read a book that I'd studied in or around middle school called, "Carry On Mr. Bowditch". Now, it's not like my favorite book or even close to it. I consider it worth reading, but I'm not going to go and recommend it to everyone I know and the rest of the world. But, regardless, there are some pretty quotable lines from said book and one of them has kinda stuck with me over the last few weeks.
Okay, so the book is all about this guy, Nathanial Bowditch, who faces just about every trial that a person should never have to. Well, he has this friend, Elizabeth (who, of course, he ends up falling in love with and marrying), who says at one point something along the lines of, "Being happy takes alot of practice, doesn't it?".
I couldn't agree more.
I know that sometimes it's easy to allow the actions of others to persuade our emotions. I am so guilty when it comes to this. It doesn't take much more than a look or a comment from someone to completely throw off my day. Or week, sometimes. Too often, I find that my happiness depends on what other people think of me, say to me (or don't say to me), and how they act around me. How retarded is that?
Well, after reading this book and having that little moment of inspiration, I've decided to practice being happy. If you want to be good at something, you have to put effort into it. Like playing an instrument, learning a language, training a habit, etc. Basically, I'm going to start getting my practice in.
December has just started, the Christmas season is upon us. I have some incredibly amazing friends, both old and more recent. I have one semester left of highschool. My Senior prom is coming up. And in less than nine months, I'll have the opportunity to go on a whole new adventure. So, I'm pretty sure, this is a great time to be happy.
I've done alot of growing up the last couple months. I've had a chance to experience new things, both good and bad. I've had to make important decisions that I haven't even had to think about before. But I am one dang, lucky girl and I can't wait to see what the next few months/years have got for me!
Senior year.
Now, I'm not making excuses for myself. Well, kinda. I know that we've been told time and time again to keep a record of our lives and experiences... so, I'm going to keep trying to get better at this.
So, over the past few months, things have kinda kicked up a notch. The month of November was kind of like one giant application. Scholarship applications, college applications, job applications... If I never see another application in my life, I'll be cool with it. It was probably one of the most stressful times I have ever had to experience, thus far.
However, I lived, and have two finished applications in at BYU Provo and BYU Idaho. Step one... check.
But November had it's highlights, to be sure. I got to spend a whole six days with two of my favorite people in the world, one of which who traveled by plane just to see us. That week went by kind of fast, filled with Black Friday shopping, too much junk food, way late nights, and lots of conversations about our favorite men. Needless to say, I needed a week of complete and total teenage normalcy. Who knows how many more I'll get before it's time to grow up?
So, also during the month of November, I re-read a book that I'd studied in or around middle school called, "Carry On Mr. Bowditch". Now, it's not like my favorite book or even close to it. I consider it worth reading, but I'm not going to go and recommend it to everyone I know and the rest of the world. But, regardless, there are some pretty quotable lines from said book and one of them has kinda stuck with me over the last few weeks.
Okay, so the book is all about this guy, Nathanial Bowditch, who faces just about every trial that a person should never have to. Well, he has this friend, Elizabeth (who, of course, he ends up falling in love with and marrying), who says at one point something along the lines of, "Being happy takes alot of practice, doesn't it?".
I couldn't agree more.
I know that sometimes it's easy to allow the actions of others to persuade our emotions. I am so guilty when it comes to this. It doesn't take much more than a look or a comment from someone to completely throw off my day. Or week, sometimes. Too often, I find that my happiness depends on what other people think of me, say to me (or don't say to me), and how they act around me. How retarded is that?
Well, after reading this book and having that little moment of inspiration, I've decided to practice being happy. If you want to be good at something, you have to put effort into it. Like playing an instrument, learning a language, training a habit, etc. Basically, I'm going to start getting my practice in.
December has just started, the Christmas season is upon us. I have some incredibly amazing friends, both old and more recent. I have one semester left of highschool. My Senior prom is coming up. And in less than nine months, I'll have the opportunity to go on a whole new adventure. So, I'm pretty sure, this is a great time to be happy.
I've done alot of growing up the last couple months. I've had a chance to experience new things, both good and bad. I've had to make important decisions that I haven't even had to think about before. But I am one dang, lucky girl and I can't wait to see what the next few months/years have got for me!
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